i always needed a diary. now ill have one
Ill be posting stuff here

morning. i got up, knowing ill be having a date with my gf at 16:00, so i had plenty of time to relax and watch some Full Metal Alchemist. As i walked to my computer my friend called, saying that our paypal account has been suspended and that we have to pay for hosting oof this and some other sites today, which brought us to decision that shit happens, and we called a third friend to lend us some money untill we pass that stupid paypal verification. Then an SMS arrived from my gf.....no it was an icq message. she invited me over..she had no studies today (though she should) and i guessed that anime was out of the question.

I got up, dressed up, and went on. The snow was raging outside, and i started having second thoughts about visiting her....dang...she lives far from my city, and its such a pain to get to her, maybe i should have fun with my friends instead? So it was settled, but you know as it happens: after you decide you always have a back thought...i thought of the time we spend with my gf, but then i realized i really haven't seen my friends for a long time

I entered his house an immediately grabbed his little puppy, called him a sausage and pat him behind his ear. after that i finally said hello
Yo know sometimes i look like from thirds persons view on the things happening around me. it quite surprised me that when he went to make us some hamburgers he ate firs and only then brought some o me. I dont think he even noticed that, but this made me think howstill deep inside people are selfish, every living body thinks of itself first. i spent 5 hours at his place, then a girl he once loved called, ive always awed at their relationship, she liked knowing that he loves her but never showed her love, finally they broke up, and since then she was very mean to him though he still liked to go out with her, even though he dated another girl, and they were just mean friends. He always told me that she is really mean, but always walked with her, he usually preffered her to his friends, including me. she called him, just before we went for a walk, he told me he'd go with her, because he havent seen her for a long time.
Hmm, you know, i havent seen him too, and i even didnt go to my gf, to help my friends cheer up (he worked late all week for some programmin company and couldnt find much time to meet me).
And to think... we were best friends for like 5 years now.

I still believe in the balance in this world. that girl is being mean to him, which is being the payment for him not paying much value to his friends. Poor guy. He hasnt learned his lesson.
Then i cam home, went to emoforum, and ha d a little fun with tinkerbell and mihas (i still think tinkerbell has such a sweet face )

Now ill watch some anime and will go to bed. I still have a lot of work for next week. so much to do so little time

O.o clever!